Greetings after a long hiatus... isn't it strange that I manage to make more time for my blog when I'm back at work after two and a half months of summer vacation?! Yes, that's how long the summer vacation is for us in the education sector in Saudi Arabia. You can't blame them, as we don't get a winter vacation. And the summer months are BAD. You really cannot work in the kind of weather conditions this desert country faces in the gruelling months of June and July.
So anyway. I had a nice, long vacation, with a lot of activities: two weddings at the in-laws, family reunion at my side of the family, then back home for Jeddah's infamously-hectic Ramadan and Eid, and a couple more relaxing weeks of enjoying my life as a houswife, but by the end of which I was more than ready to get back to the routine, productivity and feeling of worthiness, that I get in my professional life.
Don't get me wrong! I absolutely love the time that I spend at home with my growing toddler, and playing housewife... but I guess I'm either not cut out to do this all the time, or it's just that being home in the summer heat all day long, waiting for the husband to get home, just got to me after a while. Alhumdulillah that I got to make the most of that beautiful time though, before the boredom started settling in.
Although I must say... being at home makes me a lazier person. I just got so engrossed in looking after Umar and the kitchen and the laundry, that taking out time for other activities just never figured in my course of plan. Hats off to all the people who manage to work from home... I can never discipline myself so well as I would need to!
So I had a lot of blog ideas before I started getting useless... I really need to start taking my blog more seriously! There was so much I wanted to write about... Ramadan in particular, but that came and went... then came the month of Shawal, which is also a time for religious pondering for many muslims, but that just went by as well... as I said... this mama lacks discipline! Wake up call needed? I guess so.
We waste too much of our time in just plain useless things. I, for one, am a great procrastinator. Why do now when you can put off for later?! This seems to be my motto! Which is not really the best thing to do when you have so much to take care of... a family, a home, a job. Motherhood did not prepare me for the fact that you need to be super-organised, mega-meticulous, and really in control of yourself in order to be able to function as a normal, productive person! So my time back at home after returning from India was like a mini-wake-up call for me, in which I took baby steps to try and improve myself, and be a better homemaker than I had turned myself into in the last 2 years or so. In the long run, I realised it's not so difficult to take control of situations before they get out of control. Trying to be organised again didn't turn out to be as difficult a task as I thought it would... and getting back to a new academic year at work put new determination in me!
I'm hoping to continue taking more strides rather than steps now, so I can hope to be a better person. After all, I strongly believe, a woman is the one who controls how her family will turn out to be. She can make or break it! I would definitely want to make my family life better, more organised, more in control, and therefore healthy and happy, rather than see it going downhill in a whirlpool of lifelessness, procrastination and laziness.
Here's hoping that these targets of mine can be achieved! Wish me luck!
